I just want you to show me you still care; that you still love me.

I’m sitting here thinking of you. Wishing you were here. Wishing you never did the things you did. Watching the people I’m closest to be happy because they still have a person like you. Every father’s day I cry. Every year on your birthday I cry. On Christmas, my birthday, easter. Almost any day that was once a family event makes me cry. Makes me wish you never threw everything you once had away for a little pleasure. Now I have a broken family & you sit there with a perfect one. A beautiful daughter & wife. All the money you’ve ever wanted. You’re happy & I’m sitting here lonely. Missing you. But for what? It’s not like it will ever change anything. You’re never going to miss me the way I miss you. It will never be the same. But sometimes I’d just wish you’d try to make it better than it is now. 

But who am I kidding?

Wishes never come true.